sometimes, i dream that its still possible
other times, i face the harsh reality of life and see a glimpse of what’s really going on
this kind of situation would have forced anyone to quit but why am i still standing here at this y-junction?
sometimes i think that i’m standing still because i hope to be able to fulfill that fairytale dream of mine of loving one person for eternity and live happily ever after
sometimes i think i’m remaining still because i’m still picturing the “fairytale” situation if she hadn’t left telling myself what if.
but then what has happened has happened.
let’s look at the facts
she admits she likes a guy, who we don’t know. unlikely to be me
a heart in her display name, hits the nail on the coffin pretty hard
response from me:
and here i am still trying to imagine that it might be me
yes, i know its wrong to sulk and wait. i’ve been trying to find my life, hanging out with new people, working hard, playing hard, sleeping lots, trying to rid my head of that one person who keeps popping back in
yeah sometimes i manage days without thinking about her, but when a good thought about her hits me, i fall back into that well and try to climb out again
i don’t know whether i can seal the well shut for good, probably it would take some other girl
i know i won’t be saying “what if” forever, one day, it’s gonna hit me smack in the face and let me wake up. butt or i could see what happens in another ten years
AHHH. there i go again. the same but i put after ever negative comment. the wrong thing about me is I’M TOO DAMN OPTIMISTIC. i always believe there’s hope, always a but after no. i will never change, i know it, i’ll just keep on conflicting myself till the die I die
so yes the answer is a drife or a lream, whichever keeps me going on, soul or souless.