i didn’t feel sad. i actually felt kinda weightless now that we’re broke up.
i dun know but i dun think i wanna be in a relationship right now
it’s just very tiring having a girl
with carmen, i always had some kind of obligation to talk to her, to reply her
with “her”, i always had an obligation to please her, to make her not hate me.
i guess i really rushed into this thing, liking carmen and all that.
is it tht my view of love had changed or was it that i actually didn’t like her in the way i thought i was
fuck fuck fuck
summer work does not sound as glorious as it is
it started out fine. making some fund requestletters.
i understood making edited versions. the 1st, 2nd.
it started becoming mundane. but now it is just straight out excessive.
it’s my fucking 5th draft, and the reason is because it should be operations costs with an “s” not operation cost
i mean being perfect is good and professional. but i just don’t seem to understand the logic behind this stupid nuisance of singulars and plurals
it’s just dumbass. that no s and yes -s.who gives a shit.
when i co-worker handed me over that “imperfect’ set of letters, i just fucking wanted to knock her straight in the head like in wanted
but yeah, calmness. counting from one to ten so i don’t make myself look like a jerk.
we say life is controlled by big things, but don’t you think that life is actually
more influenced by those small and little things
one less screw and nail can weaken a building, and kill
one small germ can multiply and wreak havoc in public
one mosquito can disperese and affect millions
and that’s why we have rules.
rules to make sure we do the right thing. to make sure we don’t make mistakes
but sometimesi think rules stifle our imagination, stifle our power, and capactiy to do more than is told.
think of the number of thigns you’re always limited from doing
laws covering all the nuisances and giving headaches to the lawyers, employers and accountants
running only a certain number of laps
writing more than the maximum number of words
but i guess rules must be there, because the majority of us are commoners. haha