i don’t know. just these two weeks of ib has really made me feel like shit
i knew i analyze way too much.
i thought about my IB courses for hours but still didn’t come up with a solution
combine this with my dreamy personality, then you’ve got a person who won’t sleep until he has convinced himself he’s chosen the best course or exhausted his brain cells
when i’m convinced i’m doing the “right” things, i get really focused and get 90s and 100s but now i got 59.
this just becomes a viscous cycle and i keep questioning myself until i fail
i just want some kind of confirmation, sign of some sort just to take away this doubt in my heart.
i’ve been like this all my life
this deep thinking analytical personality has made me a great thinker but also the worst possible “actioner”
it takes me just forever to decide on something
even after i’ve decided. i still keep on thinking what if what if
i’m sure this kind of mentality will screw me up quite quickly, so i just hope that i can change this bad habbit soon enough
inspire me, something inspire me.