i am going to apologize
for seeming to be arrogant
while reading my posts from months ago or even just weeks ago, i get a feeling that i write like a know it all
that i can be so certain i will not make the same mistake again
but time after time reality tells me that’s not the case
at first, i thut the human brain was learning machine, that we learn from over mistakes, and try not to commit the same
i thut that i was better than you all
if i was in control of this world, we would have none of the problems
but the financial crisis, the emotional crisis, poverty, things that have been in civilization since time began
i had a hope that maybe obama would bring change. obama was smart, deep, competent
but when i saw obama up there, giving his inauguration speech. i realized that he was just another man, maybe a man with a lot of power, but no a man who can take away all of the world’s problems
it’s not that i’m blaming obama or anyone in particular.
i’m just using them as examples of me being hubrious
every past blog ends with a sort of a lesson, a moral, a moral that i shall apply in my own life
but seemingly, every time these morals seem to slip my mind when the time comes
often, i write these reflections after the event, in which case i can state them in a matter-of-fact tone.
like economists who are all now writing books of how the financial crisis will happen
about leverage, about credit buying
the market crash back in 1928 happened for the very same reasons, are we truly learning creatures?
seemingly, this is a trait that all people share.
to illude ourselves with the notion that we can always do better next time
so i apologize
apologize for illuding myself into that notion.