back to a discussion of what i want to do with my next semester as in my social self after
reading previous things i’ve written.
should i partake in my own share of D.F.M.O. next semester (standing for dance floor make out) and embrace this liberal culture that i have been weary of?
iaofchewdrin is right. i do care, which is why i’m thinking about it …constantly, almost obsessively
in some way, it seems like a never ending debate, but at least for now, sth i have stopped worrying about compared to last time is the sex dilemma.
i guess it’s my fault as well. i think i can turn myself on and off like switches, every decisions resulting in a 1 or 0. this blog was meant to be a debating ground for that process, to decide which to choose of these two special numbers.
i guess it’s time to re-remember floating point, decimals, that there may be no need to make every decision so final, so limiting. on the other hand, should i try to feel it again, just do what i feel comfortable with.
whether i decide now doesn’t account to anything if placed-in-that-situation again, like last time, i decide no in the split of a second.
it’s a bad thing that i’m analytical, excessively so, bringing no end to any debate. the end of a post is only a sign of exhaustion, a momentary pause in my train of thought, but never a final resounding state of mind.
an improvement from last time though, is that i’m going to divorce moral and immoral from this discussion, because as people have told me, morality is not involved. it depends on how i look at it.
instead, i should believe in how i feel, if i like it.
p.s. wondering why i’m starting to really like electronic music.